Sunday:11:10pm (April 29,2007)
Considering yourself to be okay after what had happenned is the hardest thing I'm facing right now..Including the lost of self donfidence because I'm seeing myself like this really different from I was before..
For my relatives and friends, being batch kalasag's student council president and PMT's adjutant is a high adchievement i got so far..but for myself, singing with my co-choir members and praising God through our music is the greatest achievement I can be proud of..
But since June 26th last year, everything has change..thankful for being alive but a bit upset for I cannot do the things I'm doing before..Sad but, as I've said into my other blog "I must accept the reality",I shoul dcontinue life for God has a different plan for me...
Singing is one of my interests before..Seeing myself holding the mic and singing in our videoke is one of the moments lingering on my mind everytime I saw a friend or a neighbor singing..I missed myself doing those things, but all I have to do is just to accept that my voice won't back anymore..
A have a very bad feeling everytime I'm singing with my co-choir members..coz i feel that "pampadagdag lang ako sa kanila at hindi naman ako nakakatulong" plus the fact that I might ruin their wonderful sound,coz I'm considering myself "sintunado"...those words always run into my head..but last night when we have a choir practice for the upcoming concert..and we're like 20 persons..with only limited numbers of soprano singing..I heard myself singing the notes..not the right ones maybe, but the beautiful thing is I can sing, even I have a very small voice pa "ipit"...It's nice to see yourself improving especially in terms of what you're doing the most..
I can say that reading the books my friends gave me is one of the reason why I'm not crying every night..reading my books especially the bible make me whole again..
What a day it was..:p
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