Sunday:11:10pm (April 29,2007)
Considering yourself to be okay after what had happenned is the hardest thing I'm facing right now..Including the lost of self donfidence because I'm seeing myself like this really different from I was before..
For my relatives and friends, being batch kalasag's student council president and PMT's adjutant is a high adchievement i got so far..but for myself, singing with my co-choir members and praising God through our music is the greatest achievement I can be proud of..
But since June 26th last year, everything has change..thankful for being alive but a bit upset for I cannot do the things I'm doing before..Sad but, as I've said into my other blog "I must accept the reality",I shoul dcontinue life for God has a different plan for me...
Singing is one of my interests before..Seeing myself holding the mic and singing in our videoke is one of the moments lingering on my mind everytime I saw a friend or a neighbor singing..I missed myself doing those things, but all I have to do is just to accept that my voice won't back anymore..
A have a very bad feeling everytime I'm singing with my co-choir members..coz i feel that "pampadagdag lang ako sa kanila at hindi naman ako nakakatulong" plus the fact that I might ruin their wonderful sound,coz I'm considering myself "sintunado"...those words always run into my head..but last night when we have a choir practice for the upcoming concert..and we're like 20 persons..with only limited numbers of soprano singing..I heard myself singing the notes..not the right ones maybe, but the beautiful thing is I can sing, even I have a very small voice pa "ipit"...It's nice to see yourself improving especially in terms of what you're doing the most..
I can say that reading the books my friends gave me is one of the reason why I'm not crying every night..reading my books especially the bible make me whole again..
What a day it was..:p
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
it's been a year
June 24,2007 2:29pm
"Sometimes you have to fall from the mountain to realize what you are climbing for. OBSTACLES ARE PUT IN OUR WAY TO SEE IF WHAT WE WANT IS REALLY WORTH FIGHTING FOR. From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I survived."
From the past few months of struggle and difficulty, now i'm still here, being the same "me" that i was before.. Full of courage, hope, dreams and faith in God that every single thing that happened is happening according to his plans.. Thinking those moments from last year, is like a fresh morning breeze,flashing into my memory.. I can say that I'm already into it.. But hey, it's not just like that.. Hard i can say but getting harder whenever i thought and cried about it..
So,now i wrote this up to express my thoughts of dealing with my own fate after a year.. Being the strong person as i can be is the most wonderful thing i'm keeping in my pocket right now as i walk in the path of what God has provided me.. Every inspirational books and text qoutes I've read keeps me more confident and strong..
I'm pretty much thankful because in this i learned the real meaning of deep faith,forgiving and acceptance.. Bible became my haven for the past months, reading it and reflecting from it is a major factor in this journey, for without God and his gospels how can I make it through the storms..
So the best thing that we can do is to live our life to the fullest for we don't know what will happened in the next 24 hours.. So be the person that we wanted to be..
I will end up this blog with a text quote from a friend that says:
"How we deal with life is really a matter of personal choice, so choose to be happy. Find joy in the simplest things and see beauty in each person you meet. When times are difficult, remind yourself that no pain comes to you without a purpose.."
"Sometimes you have to fall from the mountain to realize what you are climbing for. OBSTACLES ARE PUT IN OUR WAY TO SEE IF WHAT WE WANT IS REALLY WORTH FIGHTING FOR. From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I survived."
From the past few months of struggle and difficulty, now i'm still here, being the same "me" that i was before.. Full of courage, hope, dreams and faith in God that every single thing that happened is happening according to his plans.. Thinking those moments from last year, is like a fresh morning breeze,flashing into my memory.. I can say that I'm already into it.. But hey, it's not just like that.. Hard i can say but getting harder whenever i thought and cried about it..
So,now i wrote this up to express my thoughts of dealing with my own fate after a year.. Being the strong person as i can be is the most wonderful thing i'm keeping in my pocket right now as i walk in the path of what God has provided me.. Every inspirational books and text qoutes I've read keeps me more confident and strong..
I'm pretty much thankful because in this i learned the real meaning of deep faith,forgiving and acceptance.. Bible became my haven for the past months, reading it and reflecting from it is a major factor in this journey, for without God and his gospels how can I make it through the storms..
So the best thing that we can do is to live our life to the fullest for we don't know what will happened in the next 24 hours.. So be the person that we wanted to be..
I will end up this blog with a text quote from a friend that says:
"How we deal with life is really a matter of personal choice, so choose to be happy. Find joy in the simplest things and see beauty in each person you meet. When times are difficult, remind yourself that no pain comes to you without a purpose.."
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